Growing Up…
For most people, growing up is synonymous to getting older. But after living for almost a quarter of century, I look upon my life and realize its much more than just getting older… Its about getting more experience, getting more ideas, its about getting mature (I seem to hit upon the exact word)…
So here I am, with my life before me… So much time seems to have passed. I have lived my life as it came… played, laughed, cried, teased, run, fell, got up, hurt, got hurt, learned, unlearned, forgot, remembered… I have done it all… and I liked it… If I’d given chance to life again, I’ll still make the decisions I made, I’ll go from those paths that I went…
So what did I learn from all my life’s experiences? When I compare myself from what I was 10 years ago, I find many changes in myself. The most prominent one; becoming deliberate from being spontaneous… Now I think before I act… and I am no more impatient. I am now more content then I was 10 years ago… and I am more aggressive. Perhaps those are the signs of maturity!! I now know that maturity isn’t something you’d gain just by being old… You’ll have to interact, think, feel, act. I now know that world isn’t perfect — it was never meant to. I don’t expect perfect outcomes now… Because if you become perfect, you wont have any chance to improve — which is imperfect in its own… Over the years I feel becoming more self centered… which I think is a by product of maturity - or vice versa…
Here too I am talking about myself from the start... I now feel more confident in being honest about things I feel… which is a nice thing as I have said everything about myself without any hesitation and without any lie… Over the years I have seen people’s expectations from me growing… sometimes I find it choking me, sometimes I find it very stimulating… I have learned that if you fear something it will keep you haunting for ever, and if you face it firmly you will conquer it… Be it a memory of someone …
I stopped celebrating my birthday long ago as I don’t see the logic in people congratulating you on something to which you have no credit. I’ve been very less emotional from start and I feel birthdays are just like other days… But, I still love the surprise feeling of answering some long lost friends’ call… Hey! that’s the reason I remember all my friend’s birthdays… I don’t believe in making resolutions because I don’t need any resolution to do something…
Hmm… I wanna end this monologue now… So when I hear to my 11 year old cousin who now dreams to become a pilot, I get reminded of myself… One can draw his inspiration from anywhere… and thats why I believe that this is a continuous process… I have yet to see more… and experience and explore. Life is meant for learning… and growing up… these years will keep coming and going, what counts in the end is how you utilize the time allotted to you…
I will turn 24 tomorrow! I’d like to thank everyone, my family, my friends who are around me, makes me feel happy everyday & keep inspiring me… and special thanks goes to my friend Shahab Jafri for the similar thoughts.










